Im having some friend problems at school. Im a sophomore and last year me and 4 other kids were the “it” group, we were the popular guys in the grade and every lunch period we would hang out together, and everyweekend we would chill at the mall or maybe watch a movie. In about may they stopped inviting me to places. Till this day I dont know why. So i decided to find new friends because i felt like they didnt enjoy my company and I was sick of constantly trying to get them to chill with me. So i found 2 guys they are so much nicer to hang out with than those other guys, i found that they made me more mature and they were more mature than the others were, but the problem is that they were pot heads. I smoked occasionally but i stopped. They werent even that popular and we would never hang out outside of school so im often bored on weekends. Summer came i RARELY went out. In september for your first semester i had lunch with them, i didnt like it because sometimes all they talk about is weed and they never talk about girls, or any normal teen stuff. I met this girl and we were inlove for 2 months till i ****** things up she really made me happy, she was the only one i could trust in a long time because i have “trust issues” she was my bestfriend and girlfriend. i think i suffer depression but its not legit, im not on meds or anything. I quit smoking cigarettes since i met her because she was my cigarette in a way. After we broke up i started smoking again, i never got addicted again i still smoke a cigarette a day but i can stop when i want, i just dont want to. Its second semester and i dont have lunch with those two guys, I realised i was screwed after i found out that none of my decent friends had lunch with me either. So I go out with my old friends at lunch they dont say anything about me coming with them, i just keep getting a vibe that they dont want me to be there. I have tried so much but i dont get a long with a lot of people not because they dont like me be.
I have no best friend i can confide in, or would go out of their way to help me. I feel so excluded at lunch its such a *****. I feel like everyone I know hates me. How can I make myself feel better. I wish I had 6 classes and no lunch break.